Yes. We are cyborgs!

Whats the difference between human and machine? Are we cyborgs?

My computer and back up hard drive got stolen the other day and felt like someone died in my life. It had all four years of my work on it and it has all been taken away from me. I have no proof off all the hard work that I have done throughout my college carrier. I had to start my final thesis project over form scratch with only 3 weeks left to complete it. I literally have never been so upset in my entire life then I was the moment I found out the my computer and everything on it was taken away from me. I got a new computer but thats not the point. I HATE this new computer its not mine and its so different, it types different, it clicks different, it not mine. That computer was an extension of me, it had my school work, my music, pictures, websites that i have saved over the years.
So now when someone asks me are we a cyborg the answer is yes, we are a part of machines and machines are a part of us, it makes up who we are and how we live. It is part of our identity and how we get from one day to the next. I miss my computer so much and would do anything to get it back, it was more then just a machine it was a part of who I am and was a reflection of myself. It resembled my personality, the way it was organized, the type of music and pictures i had saved on there and now its all gone, and there is now way of getting it back.
I have been through a lot of shit in my life, I have experienced death and seen shitty things happen to good people and I must honestly say that this has been the most difficult situation that I will have to over come. You will never understand what it feels like to get part of who you are taken away from you, I feel lost with out my computer and a new computer doesn't replace all that information. All this new computer does is remind me everything time I go to search for some old file that its no longer there.

It sucks that there are such horrible people in this world that steel from people, I dont feel like I deserved this to happen to me, I work very hard at school and sometimes its all I do. My life has been consumed by school and studio, I strive to get good grades and am proud when I do. Besides my family and friends, school is all I have, its all i think about, its basically my life. When something that important to you is taken it makes me wonder what I did wrong. Am I being punished? Why me? I see other people who just get things handed to them, who are naturally smart, who are in the right place at the right time. I am not one of those people. I have to work very hard at everything I do, I have never had anything just fall into place for me or been lucky. I hate those people. yet their not the one getting their bag stolen. Instead they get a good job in California with an apartment by the beach. Fuck those people.
why cant something good happen for me, just once. Instead its one bad thing after another. Life sucks and people suck....The next three weeks of my life is going to suck because I am finishing this god damn project even if it kills me.

Design is thinking made Visual

Instead of writing something this week I wanted to put up a few images and quotes that I have collected over the years. Enjoy :)

What does music mean to me?

When people ask me what type of music I like, I always say a mix of everything. I wouldnt call myself a music fanatic but at the same time there isnt one day that goes by where I dont listen to some type of music. I am in studio all day and I am always listening to music, when I am walking to class I am listening to music, in a car, at a party, eating dinner, with friends there is always music playing. I guess I never realized how much music I actually listen to on a daily basis. I am listen to music right now. I have an itunes but mostly I like to listen to Pandora Radio because you can get a variety of different artist on the same radio and I like to mix it up every once in a while and also this radio allows me to listen to new songs.

The more and more I think about music and what it means to me I think that maybe it plays a bigger role in my life then I thought. Music can change my mood instantly. Certain songs can trigger certain memories and the emotions that go along with those memories. Some songs I can relate to and understand the hurt or pain that the arist must have been going through when they wrote that song. And some songs are just simply for fun and something to dance to. But I must say that the songs that are my favorite are the ones that I can relate to.

I was listening to a song today that I have never heard before and it caught my attention because it was talking about leaving and going somewhere far away and right now, in this point in my life, I want to move after I graduate and go someplace new. I have listened to this song about 4 times today.

I go to concerts all the time during the summer, there is something about concerts, summer, drinking, and happy people that is just awesome. I love going to concerts and I look forward to them every year. In class when we were talking about the punk rock movement and how angry everyone was and how the concerts were filled with angry kids, it made me upset that that is how they experience concerts because for me concerts are something that is fun and enjoyable, filled with drunk happy kids. I am so lucky to be living in this time where the people around me are generally happy and not angry with the world. This class has really opened up my eyes and made me realize how luck I truely am. From watching guys with dolls, experiencing second life, and learning about different time periods, i have come to a new realization that I should be more greatful for what I have and who I am. That may have been a little off the topic of music but I am also lucky to have availble to me so many different types of music and it is all avialble because of technology. Ray Kurzweil may think that we will be connected to machines within the next 20 years but hey is that really a bad thing? I think it will only be bad if we allow it to take over our lives.

List of some of my favorite songs:
Nicest thing - Kate Nash
Change the World - Eric Clapton
Say you'll be there - spice girls
Like the sea - Alicia Keys
Desire, want and Need - Big Sean
Laughed until we cried - Jason Aldean
Fast Car - Tracy Chapman
Stan - Eminem
Never Grow up - Taylor Swift