post grad

i have never been so uncertain in my entire life then i am right now. I have just graduated college i have a degree in interior design and i worked my ass off for it. but guess what all that doesnt matter because now i have to "find a real job". im not even sure what that means anymore. a real job, what sittign behind a desk staring at a computer screen for over 40 hours a week. great sign me up.

with the elections coming up my parents are asking me, who am i going to vote for. and honestly i dont give a shit. do you really think one man is going to change the country around, my answer is no. lets take a look at the past. m grandparent came to america with probably less the 20 dollars in their pocket and they worked and worked to create a home and family in the new country. my parents wanted more for me. they wanted me to go to college and have the oppurunties that they never had. so they worked and worked to put me and my sister through college. dont get me wrong i appercaite EVERYTHING that they have done for me. but really what has changed. I am sitting here writing this because i think that nothing has change and i dont think it ever while. history repeats itself just in different ways. its like art "nothing is original everything is stolen". its like our parents are doing what their parent did just in a different way. and we are doing what our parents did just in a different way. our parent maybe have worked 2 or 3 jobs to put us through college. but now im sitting here out of college and guess what there are no jobs. i worked very very hard in college and only to desirve an undergradaute degree, which honestly doesnt set you apart very much. me and millions of other college graduates are looking for jobs. just like my parents were looking for jobs, so they could pay the rent and save money for a family. thats what i am doing just in a different era. nothing ever changes. NO one man will ever change that. this is what america is. we go through this cycle. we will never have a perfect country.

sometimes i hate that i am so pessimistic but i cant help it, life is what it is, you take the good with the bad. i have had some awesome amazing days and some terrible days. but thats okay because you wouldnt know the difference if there wasnt one of the other.

no clue what the point to this blog was but all i know is that i am not voting because it takes more then one man to change a country, to change anything. honestly at this point its like you only have about 100 years to live and then you die, so make the most of it.